And the results are in, week 9 weigh was minus 3 lbs meaning in 9 weeks I have lost 1.5 stone, its official! 21 lbs down, only 119 to go and honestly that number used to scare me but it doesn’t any more. I am making progress, good progress and if I can do that in 9 weeks, what can I do by Christmas, or by my birthday in June? I’m excited to see how far I can go.
I’m also happy to admit that my fear of time that I explored before has lessened and I find myself worrying less and stressing less and going with the flow a lot easier than I had previously. I am loosening the reins on being totally 100% syn free all of the time and allowing myself to add things and sauces that I previously hadn’t and I’m still seeing the results I want.
I do still check all syn values but as long as I am within my limit and it genuinely adds something to the dinner or lunch or whatever then I am happy to use those couple of syns to make it better. By allowing myself to do this I am enjoying myself a lot more, for example for dinner last night I made a DIY KFC Zinger burger with chips and I used a roll, some cheese and the best yet: heatwave Doritos and how many syns was in it?!
I’m sorry but I feel like the massive two was very relevant and needed to show you how excited I am and will continue to be about this discovery. My challenge is now to start creating my own recipes and ideas for things I want like crisps so tonight will be an experiment with countless potatoes, a bottle of fry light and various seasonings.
I will let you know the outcome next week.
On top of this I am trying not to let this diet (or should I say new healthy lifestyle) dictate my life and what I can and can’t do and this has been something with I have struggled with for a long time, I’m either all in and 100% on plan, no cheat meals, no snacks, no drinks – nothing or I’m partly in and get in a never ending cycle of thinking a few things here and there wouldn’t be bad and not admitting that it wasn’t a small amount, it was actually quite a lot. But now I’ve found a happy medium and I am more comfortable in myself because of these things.
Losing what I have so far has helped me be more confident and more comfortable doing things I wouldn’t normally do and wear clothes I would have never thought to wear. I like it and I am excited to see what I will be able to do but I’m not worried about the time. It will happen when it happens and that no longer scares me, three cheers for sensibility.